Getting Happy...One Step At A Time...

Some call it the Pursuit of Happiness…but I’m not quite sure that’s the best way to label it. I’m sure that some have heard the quote, “happiness is a butterfly, which when pursued is always just beyond your grasp, but which if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you.” by Nathaniel Hawthorn. Well, I would have to agree but I must say that it’s very hard to really have happiness when while you are sitting there, problems are being thrown at you every which way. Some say, life is what you make it, and I guess that’s true…but would that also mean, happiness is what you make it? I don’t think happiness could be what you get after you get a job, after the baby is born, after the baby grows up, after I get to retire…because if so, happiness will come after I’m dead! There will always be something new to look forward to. I guess happiness should be seen as a state of mind. You can’t have happiness later. Maybe we are afraid to be happy! We are afraid to let go of things and our problems to BE happy.

I have been very depressed and suicidal for a year now. Max, my boyfriend of 5 months, told me I had to make a change. He knows exactly what I’m going through because he has been there and he has gone through very much of what I have, and he is helping me to overcome my depression. The first step I took was Zoloft to balance out the chemicals in my brain. With that, it was actually possible for me to FEEL happy. Now, I indulge myself in thought, books, art, music and love. Whatever makes me happy, I keep and I filter out the bad. I am growing happier every day. Though life will always give you problems, I think that it is possible to be happy in ANY situation.

Today, do something that makes you happy. Create something that has a meaning to you, and smile about it.